I do not even know whether-
You will ever read this letter.
I am getting married, again.

While started writing,
I thought I will be lavish
While writing, I realized, I am too poor-
And words cost me a life time

I wonder how you are.
I wonder whether you,
Still cough during early mornings.
The girl I am getting married-
Likes to called as a star
I agree with her,
I am not left with much to give her
So why not a name she likes?
(Smiles)

I just want to know…
Did you ever love me?
Even for a minute?
(Smiles)
I read you telling your best friend
“It was an illusion”
I worry about your nail marks on my shoulder
And my arms
They are so visible-I might asked a reason
I am so afraid,
Afraid of letting stars falling into an ocean of tears

Will you write me back?
It is so many days ever since you left me
It is so many months ever since you left me
It is so many sighs…
Still the tears taste salty

Are you happy?
Did you find your perfect love?
Are you always smiling?
Which you didn’t with me often?
Does he love you?
As much you longed for?
Does he paint you?
Better than I always did?
Does he make small sounds, like me?
For which you cherished always-
Sweetness of your lips
Do his eyes sparkle like mine?
Does he tease you
Imitating your laugher?
Does he shiver under the-
Warmth of your body

Did you ever love me?
Even for a moment?
Did you?