we can only juxtapose
layer those thoughts
never the same on sunday morning
never the same sunday morning

in between
no pleasure in having
wanting is more socially acceptable
decaying carcass
water jewels
shimmering over this piece of white grey flesh

crystal clear
take me through those quiet raindrops
lull me by
chain smoke my life
crush those restless feet
let me run through your fingers
at dusk
let death interfere

lust
for just a few cubic meters of earth

cover me dark
i cannot wait that much longer
feverish tobacco leaves are calling
put that smoke ring on my finger
dearest
search for that cruelty core of love
help me reach that quicker
let me breathe in your blood

i grow angel wings
fly in every dream

lick my bloody fingers
love
draw those malachite tears from my eyeballs
bring me closer to those stillborn sons
the blind daughters
teach me sadness
transparency
stick that red velvet syringe into my lungs
i only so much need to breathe